I'm getting attention again from Terry who spent hours texting me the other day. Once again, he tells me that he loves me and that he misses me. Which is all very nice, but is it what I want? I am thinking......no! I've been there once before and got horribly burned. I don't think I shall be putting my hand back into the fire.

I had a moment the other day, when the past (not from that long ago) came up and bit me on the ass.
I was just sitting at the laptop, when a song started playing that I haven't heard since the beginning of the year. I had completely forgotten that I had put it on my MP3 player. And as I have it on shuffle, it's never been played.
It's the song that Michael sent me in his last e-mail. And it is a really nice song. But hearing it again the other day, well to put it bluntly, it made me cry. And there was me thinking that I was over him. It's funny how things aren't as simple as you thought they were.
I was actually disappointed in myself. I should be over it by now. He's not on my XBox friends list anymore and I have deleted all his e-mails. There are one or two things that I have on my phone, which haven't been a problem. I just can't believe that I actually cried about it all again. Not as hard as i make out to be.

Toodles
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